school was boring!

Hijab

Aku nk berhijab tapi takut.There's a few question im asking myself.am i ready to wear a hijab?to present islam in public?etc..aku buat bnyk dose yang tak terkire banyaknya.I don't know how long I have to wait till im ready.I'm a teenager.I wanna have fun with my friends and especially my boyfriend.I hate to look at girls wearing hijab hugging and kissing their boyfriend in public.I don't wanna be like them!But in second thought,hey wearing hijab is to tutup aurat kan?ape kne mengene dengan perangai?ntah la.im confuse.I dont know whats wrong n right.aku nk jd penghuni syurga.tapi macam tak layak.i'm tired of all these people judging me.Stop judging me!u're not perfect yourself!yes.i know.im a criminal.Because disobeying your creator is a crime.I know but i cant stop doing it.why?an u answer my question?

gloom

the ups and downs in life.One day im sad and the next day im happy again.erggh.

Retreat

This is a story about a guy named A**ah.A person who is caring,kind and generous.He doesn't deserve to be treated this way.From his mother's eyes he's crazy.He has friends who betrayed him.This world is too cruel for him.He's too kind to face it.He is the weirdest guy i've ever known.But still,I love him as my brother and bestfriend.How I wish he is my own brother who share same blood.But he is not.No one appriciate him.WHY?This is life.People are mean.They love to see other's suffer.His life is indefinate.Yes,we have to face the ups and downs in life.But can you face both in one day?No.But he can.He is a damn strong man.He can do things you can't even imagine.I only knew him for few weeks but he treated me like no brother can.Last sunday he left us.I can't even say goodbye and thank him for everything.One handshake and he's gone.I wanted to say thanks but i can't speak out those words.I felt like trapped in a glass well and there's no air to breath.It's just me sucking oxygen from a place there is none.But he came back.I was so stressed out.I cried at school.I'm an egoist person,i don't cry in public but because of I can't accept losing a friend like you,I did.Then a girl told me you are still here.I was so happy.Please.I'm begging you to stay.Stay as long as you can.I know you can't because it's not your choice.It's fate.But you changed it once.I know you can do it for the second time.Please.I don't wanna lose you again.Adam and abg Am also can't bear to lose you.You guy's do evrything together.How can u leave them?Please don't.

-hanie-

LOVE

I know him through his sister.1st. time we met is when i fall for him.It's kinda weird actually because he is my friend's brother.how awkward is that?haha.After a few days he ask me to be his girl.It was at a parking lot in mid valley after a movie(angels&demon).There is no flowers,chocolate or any sweet talk.He press his face to the car seat and ask(jom couple nak?)then i said NAK!Then he said NAK?ok..hahaha.It was simple but nice.i like it.He came live in my life and pay no rent.LOL.I hope our love will never fade,never will be like you and arina.I don't want you temporaryly.I want you till the last breath I breath.till doom's day tear us apart.The cutest word u ever say is peace peeace!hahahaha.I love you because you came to love not by finding a perfect person but by seeing imperfect person perfectly.

3rd May 2009-adam syazwan bin azman


-hanie-

ABANG

When we first met.it was at klcc.im in form 3 and you were in form 5.do u still remember?You said to me adeq ko ketot.i said abg ko hitam.and then we get closer and closer.mase tu aku ngah sedih pasal izrai.u were kind n my only crying shoulder.i spend more time with you than my friends and even my own family.I love u so much.I love you more than anyone else.aku da anggap ko abg btol aku.ta pnh aku ckp kt org ko abg angkat.sume pk ko abg aku.bongok!haha.you taught me what life is.it's not easy to live your own life.pastu ko bwk faiz masok dlm hidop aku.i have two faiz in my life and im in love with both of you.My abg and my boyfie.I even love you more than my bf.then ko cpl ngan minah kecik comey tu.tp kite still pentingkn setan sibling kite.u,me,ejard and nysa.after 5 months, i broke up with faiz.ko pon da cpl ngan darling.aku ske die.die best.kite leh kuar same2.I have family prob.I cried every single day without your shoulder to cry on.I wanted to call you tp kakak aku rampas phone.Aku takleh nak wat pape.Aku nak keluar rumah pon tak boleh.Satu hari kakak aku bagi aku kuar kt bwh.swim.aku happy gile.nak call ko tp num lak aku da lpe.adoi.life in my sister's house is like in a prison.aku takleh on9.no phne call.no friends.absalutely nothing.I miss you.I miss faiz.I miss selayang's guy.Bile aku da boleh kuar.jmpe ko.ko ngah sedih darling ta lyn ko sbln.aku pon sedih sbb aku takleh nak wat pape.Ko ade ckp ni kt nysa."adeq ko check kakak ko ni ade virgin ke tak,takleh caye die ni".Ya Allah mse tu my heart drop.Aku sedih gile.aku da nk nanges but i dont wanna add more burden to u.sbb ko pon ngah down mse tu.I wonder why u asked that question to nysa.it came out from a guy i love as my own brother.Mse tu aku da lain skit.dulu ko cakap aku kikis duit laki.sume laki aku cpl.aku kikis.KO NI KENAL AKU KE TAK???????aku pon taktau da ko knl aku ke tak.aku ta pcaye sgt.smpai la ko tnye aku kt starbucks.mse tu aku cpl ngan zul.ko tnye.tiah ko nk die ke duit die?fuhhhhhh.tak tahan weyh.ni yg aku simpan selame ni la.you said u love me but i love you harder.and this what we get after for years we've known each other.and skarang.aku baru kutuk gf ko tu pon dpn2.bknnye aku kutuk ngan kwn2 aku ke sape.and about burit bau rokok n stuff.i was just joking but u take it seriously.nothing i can do.take care.i hope u will be with her forever and stay la ngan nysa.jgn sbb aku ko nk jaoh2 ngan nysa gak.kesian die.i love you ABANG!daa

This song reminds me of you