Hijab

Aku nk berhijab tapi takut.There's a few question im asking myself.am i ready to wear a hijab?to present islam in public?etc..aku buat bnyk dose yang tak terkire banyaknya.I don't know how long I have to wait till im ready.I'm a teenager.I wanna have fun with my friends and especially my boyfriend.I hate to look at girls wearing hijab hugging and kissing their boyfriend in public.I don't wanna be like them!But in second thought,hey wearing hijab is to tutup aurat kan?ape kne mengene dengan perangai?ntah la.im confuse.I dont know whats wrong n right.aku nk jd penghuni syurga.tapi macam tak layak.i'm tired of all these people judging me.Stop judging me!u're not perfect yourself!yes.i know.im a criminal.Because disobeying your creator is a crime.I know but i cant stop doing it.why?an u answer my question?